can't help it

I sit here, missing you. wishing i was the girl next to you. thinking about everything we ever talked about. All the promises we made. And how now none of those things mean a thing. i love you and will always love you but i mean nothing now. She is yours, the girl who cry's on your shoulder, the girl you tell everything to, the girl you love.

I fell really hard for you and you didn’t even notice.

It’s been me all along, I love you always have and always will. I love you. I can’t get you out of my head. You’re the only freaking thing in there, I can’t concentrate on ANYTHING. You’re the first thing that I think of when I wake up, and the last thing before I go to bed. I love you. Everything. Even your flaws. I see you for you, and you can’t even see that I’m head over heels in love with you. You have a girlfriend now? Way to shatter my heart even more then it already was, now I don’t have a heart. I can’t feel anything. I hate that. I’m scared that if I talk to you, and you break me even more, I won’t be able to take it and I’ll be gone… Gone for good. Would that make you happy? Have I even crossed your mind? I bet I haven’t… I wish I did. But no, why me right? The person that helped you with everything when you were cutting and upset and being used by people. I was there, I was there for EVERYTHING. And you chose everything over me, thanks for caring. It means a lot.

from someone who still love you

xoxo

I Finally Found Someone - Barbra Streisand and Bryan Adams

I finally found someone, that knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete
We started over coffee, we started out as friends
It’s funny how from simple things, the best things begin

This time it’s different
It’s all because of you
It’s better than it’s ever been
‘Cause we can talk it through

Oohh, my favorite line was “Can I call you sometime ?”
It’s all you had to say
To take my breath away

This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
‘Cause whatever I do
It’s just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

Did I keep you waiting, I didn’t mind
I apologize, baby, that’s fine
I would wait forever
Just to know you were mine
You know I love your hair, are you sure it looks right ?
I love what you wear, isn’t it the time ?
You’re exceptional
I can’t wait for the rest of my life . . .

This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
‘Cause whatever I do
It’s just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
Whatever I do
It’s just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

I want a boy best friend :)

I want a boy best friend who will call me beautiful, and like my photos on facebook, commenting them saying things such as the fact he’s proud to have me as a bestfriend. One that I can call up, crying about other boys, and him saying he’ll beat the shit out of them for me. A boy bestfriend who will drive me around like he’s my big brother, and kiss me on my cheek/forehead when he knows I’m upset. One who becomes friends with my boyfriend and one who calls me up to see what I’m doing. I want a boy best friend who will tell me when I’m wrong, and force me into fixing things and apologizing because he knows that it will make things better for me. I just want a perfect boy best friend, who will love me and protect me from all the other boys. The one I can really call MY bestfriend.

Kika

"better late than never, but never late is better"

the beach

Dear teenagers

Dear teenagers, what the fuck are you doing? How old are you.. 15, maybe 16? Did you ever once think how are you wasting you’re life away? Stop thinking about the guy who broke your heart, he’s not worth it. Stop thinking about whether you look cool being an anorexic or not, nobody cares. Stop sulking around and being depressed… you just need to be happy. You’re only young once and this is the time when you need to have fun and forget about everything that doesn’t make you happy. Fuck everyone who doesn’t make you happy! Go out and have fun, this could be your last day.